Future Authors – Penelope Kwenda

Black Maleficent

I mean, I’m not lazy. I don’t care for needless things. I don’t sweat the small stuff. I only care for things that revolve around me – if it doesn’t affect me, then I don’t care.

I’m not trying to be an arrogant snob or anything, but I know I will be successful. And no, I’m not self-centered or anything, but you know when you are meant for greatness.

I care for the things that are for my greatness. Others tend to think I’m lazy and useless, but I’m not. I just hate being told what to do. I prefer telling others what to do. Which is probably why I dislike school. There are so many rules! I can’t follow rules. I want to do things my way. I personally feel there is nothing wrong with that. I mean – it’s my world! And I love that about myself. I am honest, unlike others who love to hide their flaws and pretend like they are good people but in the end, we all are bad in somewhat way and I have no shame because I am human. I don’t blame people for that I mean it’s human nature to try to appear perfect and seem like you have no flaws but no matter how hard you try to appear perfect the truth will always come out

Nobody is perfect – but with me, I don’t feel the need to appear perfect and nor do I need to impress anyone. It is very tiring trying to show others you are a good person. I myself know I am a good person. I will be good to those who are good to me, but one wrong move, I will show you how much of a bad person I can be! As much as I can be good I know I can be a villainess – careless of others feelings! I also know how to manipulate others – but don’t we all have a bad side to us?

I have been there…. trying to impress others. I cared for people. I took care of them and showed affection. I thought I finally found people I can call true friends – but I surely realised I was giving, but never getting! They only came to me when something was needed and I was always available. But not once did they think if I needed someone to care for me.

But enough of the emotional stuff.

I am not fond of showing love, but when I do show it, you should appreciate it, because it’s bona fide (and it’s how I know how to show my love). So if you abuse it, you have woken the maleficent in me. You will regret meeting me – and when I am done with you and leave, you will miss me.

Sticky J

You said you would be there for me.

You said I could call whenever.

You knew me better than anyone.

I looked down on you (so I could feel like I didn’t need you), but when you left, I was inconsolable.

You never really left me, I distanced myself, and so did you. I expected you to run back to me to understand why I did what I did – but I guess I was wrong.

When you had insomnia, I had to help you. I believed, if I could help you, you would never leave me. I was so arrogant! I made it seem like you needed me – but no, I needed you!

I want to be left alone….. what a lie! Usually when you tell people you like to be alone, they won’t leave you alone….correctly put, I should have said…. please don’t leave me alone with my thoughts (that’s more accurate!)

The little attention you gave to me meant the world to me. You lionized me like nobody ever did

You could see I was not doing okay when you checked up on me. You never begged me to tell you what was wrong – like I did with you. You had not smiled in a long time… and I did little things to cheer you up – like asking our friendship group to play hand games together. I did so much for you, how could you leave me?

You start becoming happy, while my life keeps getting worse.

Why am I so angry that you are happy? Isn’t that what I wanted?

I tried detaching myself from you, but it was too late. I was already attached.

How could you possibly live without me? Was I not important to you?

I laughed like crazy around you. I observed you, to better understand you, like how you would swing your body from left to right before you did something.

How I feel about you had nothing to do with you – it was just a reflection of myself.

You distancing yourself from me had nothing to do with me, you needed some time to heal alone. Sticky J is the best friend I ever had – he has done nothing wrong. He took responsibility for his own happiness.